I have an anger management problem
It is manageable - I liken it to having a stockpile of plutonium in your backyard that after 100s of years hidden, explodes when you start excavating😩😩
I can even tell you the date of the last 'explosion' - 16 th January 2008, so I guess it is more an occasional kink than a problem but a lot like the plutonium analogy , the aftermath can be devastating and long lasting.
Teamed with a short fuse I also have a pathological loathing of bullying.
I remember as a child taking on three hulking teenagers who were making fun of a dog and going to the rescue of a little chubby boy being thrust into a puddle by again - a group of gangly teenage boys.
Like most of us it is the incredible sense of injustice that we hate. The sense of inequality. The idea that because we are bigger, louder or in a position of power we can intimidate others.
I have never really succumbed to bullies myself partly maybe because of a combination of a short fuse and big mouth but I also believe we can only be bullied if we allow ourselves to be bullied.
A lot of people know my blessed abundant life endowed by my wonderful children and how I am relieved of financial stress and a life rich with community, fitness and healthy ageing.
It has not always been that easy.
I have always felt blessed but financial stress has often had me on the back foot.
I remember an incident when I visited Westpac Bank with Peta in tow in order to tidy up my direct debits which were plentiful as paying in regular small instalments was a more efficient method of keeping up payments.
Sitting opposite a young woman who looked not long out of University, keen to make her mark , she turned the screen of my account, flashing my many and varied transactions and looking at Peta she cautioned:-
'Never let yourself get into this kind of mess......'😀
Devastated ashamed embarrassed and confronted with the reality of my financial incompetence I spluttered that I wouldn't pursue the interview to which I was told -
'God helps those that help themselves......'
Mortified we slunk out of the bank and I did discover later that the young woman had been sanctioned for unprofessional behaviour.
That did not stop my complete feeling of failure particularly in front of my daughter who relied on me to have things in control.
That sense of victimsation - that sense of -' you are at our mercy' dogged me for many years as I struggled to to rob Peter to pay Paul and was never too far away from debt collection.
I was someone who prided myself on making a stand and counselled my students to be empowered and not allow bullies to take control.
I needed support from financial institutions and really had to bow to every whim and ridiculous interest rate increase.
Apart from the obvious freedoms that network marketing has allowed me it has also allowed me the freedom to not be desperate and to play the big players at their own game.
There is little more edifying for an angry person like me than to snub my nose at those who think I am at their mercy.
The freedom is second to none and has helped in large degrees for me to quash any future explosions as I am relieved of stress , anxiety and limited options.
Of all my freedoms this one is one of my favourites.
it has given me a peace of mind that translates so well to other parts of my life.
There is always a solution - there is always another day and if we don't compromise our values and beliefs the Universe will look after us 😀
#bulliesbuggeroff
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