Been a while......never too late ........

This blogging thing is new to me .

There's a lot that seems new lately.

I used to wait for inspiration before I wrote anything ,liking to share stuff that might be thought provoking .

Sometimes there seems to be nothing to say that anyone wants to hear or read. I reflected on why I was in such a cerebral waste land and realised that maybe real blogging is just writing about what's on my mind.

I have been trying to do a lot of self development lately having realised that a lifetime spent dealing with a bureacracy has left me fairly bitter, twisted and cynical.

I want to change and have gone some way in improving.

I work hard to alter my attitude by thinking differently. I feel the changes have been significant.

I feel more positive and proactive about changing my life direction - I've jettisoned the words 'trying' and 'it is what it is.....' !!

I always thought I was self motivated and able to operate without too much direction - I rated myself as an autonomous worker.

Life as a network marketer has been challenging - I'm discovering so much about myself .

I talk to people and get to share a product I will use for life.

I have tools, meetings and Webinars at my disposal and all the assistance and guidance imaginable .

It is so different to what I am used to doing and it is interesting to learn all over again.

A little like a Year 1 learning to read I feel invigorated to start the learning process all over again - it's almost like I am getting a second chance to find alignment in life.

It's starting to annoy me to hear people say -' I am who I am ' and 'I can't change'.

We can all change if there's room for change. Very much a product of our upbringing  and the combined forces of  the turbulence of life we are sometimes not exactly who we want to be- if we look back on the promise and hope of our youth  some of us would probably not recognise our selves if we looked in a mirror.

I watch people in their twilight years , much more mature than I and wonder at the toll the years have taken. They look beaten down physically and in spirit and you can't help but wonder at how things  might have been different if they had kept the spirit of hope and opportunity of their youth.

I look differently at celebrities now - I use to think they were self absorbed and vacuous but now I see that they probably just saw an opportunity and took it.

Imagination, vision and dreams have been for some replaced by chasing the dollar and working the everyday tedium of bills and chores.

Not everyone can chase dreams and 'pie in the sky' but I am so happy  to be able to have the chance to maybe reinvent myself and chase my dreams.

 

Comments

[Fiona]

So true. I really believe in the capacity to change. I eventually blew up at my husband over this. He used to talk blah blah blah and end with Never have, never will or Always have, always will. I got so fed up with the way he was proud of this. Needless to say, he doesn't say it any more. I think I was very clear about my opinion on such a fixed mindset. Believing in the capacity to change is necessary for forgiveness too. It is essential that we allow for change in others' journeys too.