I have never been a great decision maker -you know that guy who when confronted with two signs will go the wrong wayππ
Over time I have learned to own my decisions, good and bad and have discovered this to be quite liberating as I can now determine the outcome no matter how bad the original decision
I remember when living in Kununurra in 1980 I had an argument with my then boyfriend and stormed off in a huff - any good tantrum needs a big gesture so with my car having work done I decided to hitch hike to a near by water hole to cool down - I think it may have been Ivanhoe - though popular was isolated.
It wasn't too long before a mini moke pulled up and a sturdy, happy looking individual offered me a lift. We hadn't gone too far when this robust looking gentleman started a conversation telling me he was a seasonal helicopter pilot doing crop dusting, that he came and went and his movements were pretty much his business. He proceeded to advise me of the dangers of hitchhiking and given the landscape I could easily disappear without a trace.
I quickly evaluated the situation and after dismissing the idea of throwing myself out of a speeding car onto a desolate red road my life flashed quickly before my eyes. I sweated , shook with fear and then experienced a calm that came from the knowledge that I had made this decision and I had enjoyed a pretty good 24 years and if this day should be my last - let it be quick.......
Clearly his words were cautionary as I am alive to tell the story but to this day I attempt to think through my options weighing up both sides and then decide -doesn't always work but my ownership of poor decisions has evolved.
Sometimes I get it right like the time I was advised not to sleep outside my car which was my custom as the crocodiles came out of the river at the Keep in NT and would drag you down into the river in the dead of night
Though thinking it an urban myth, I did have a roll cage on my short wheel base land cruiser with a roof rack that accommodated an air mattress so I put my dog in the car and slept on the roof.
During the night I heard the distinctive eerie noise of what I can only describe as 'chirping' and looking down saw the scaly creatures indeed making their way out of the water - enough said π©π©
Being an adult who has had to make important decisions on my own I have often needed to take a deep breath and much like someone who is abseiling down a steep cliff I just need to take the first step and hope I land safely
I am grateful life has allowed me to cock up on a regular basis and as it has made me face my decisions, own them and learn from them.
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